Why do I always do things that makes me bang my head against the wall? Despite all better judgement I actually messaged him and asked if he wants to meet!!! DUH. And honestly I knew he was going to find some excuse to say no. Said he's meeting a friend and might not have enough time, eh... I haven't even stated time lor... but then just as well... He was kinda wary too I guess as he asked why I wanted to meet. Sigh, can't we even just meet as friends? He was the one who said he'll be okay being friends. If I remembered correctly I was the one who had a problem with that.

S suggested that I write a blog all about him for him. At first I was thinking SIAO! but I guess it's actually a good idea as it lets me pour out everything inside me, like I'm really talking to him. Only thing, I won't be showing it to anyone, not even him. may be on the day I die.... which S promised she'll help me tell him where to look.... Thanks!

BTW, I'm so jealous of S's new blog. Ok, so I'm new to this but you don't have to change yours to such a fantastic looking one right.... I've not even figured out how to add the message board yet! And to think A was yelling in HER blog that I was a nerd for acing my computer classes back in poly. ha!

Attending a wedding tomorrow, sigh really didn't feel like going. No mood. But as P probably valued my friendship enough to invite depsite the fact we haven't really caught up all these years I guess I should go. Only that couples and weddings depresses me ALOT nowadays.... Well, anyway, weddings are a fertile ground for meeting other singles, so I'll just look my best and turn up tomorrow. Who knows what will turn up. After all, it's God's territory so HE might have something planned. hahaha... yea, dreaming on.....

ramble ramble.....