Ever felt that life can be so meaningless sometimes? That whatever you do, no matter how good, makes little difference to anything but your ego. Everything is meaningless. Who you love, how deep you love, what work you do, how much you earn, nothing means anything to anybody but your own inflated ago.

Sometimes it's a little awakening to realise that someone you used to love very deeply, or something that used to mean very much to you, can suddenly lose all that intensity of emotions. And suddenly can come overnight, or in a split second.

I am getting numbed to getting hurt or feeling loved. Nothing excites me anymore and I don't care anymore about anything or anybody. Nothing that I look forward to anymore. Each day is just another 24hours to live through.

But I am starting to feel more loath and anger than ever. Towards all the people and things that I used to hold close and dear.