I had another dream last night. In this dream I saw HIM. I felt HIS reluctance to come back because of HIS insecurity and uncertainty. HIS inferiorty complex stood like a mountain between us. HIS fear of not being able to give me what HE thinks I want.

I think I cried in the dream. I know I felt very sad. But I heard me telling myself that it is time to let go. If HE cannot overcome HIMSELF I cannot help HIM and no amount of waiting will make a difference. HE has to get over HIS lack of self-confidence first and to start believing in me when I say I do not care for the material things. I think I walked away from HIM in the dream. I could not bear knowing how much HE loves me but feels too inferior to be with me.

I love HIM but life has moved on. I am beginning to visualise a future without HIM. But the road is lonely.

For now.