God never ceases to amaze me with the things He does. Just as I was feeling really low and wondering if my job is worth staying on for, despite everything else and all because of one woman, He sends encouragement and sustenance my way and gives me hope and reason to stay on and perservere. I do not need or want big commendation awards or recognition plaques. A simple 'thank you' and 'good job' or 'appreciate your work' is more than enough for me to bite the bullet and trudge on, even late into the nights.

This is no simpleton. She is really two-faced in the way she is manipulating me and everyone around but only I see that. Not because I'm very observant or discerning, but because she shows both sides to me, as if telling me that there is nothing I can do to challenge her and I can only just accept. The problem is, she thinks I'm the simpleton. When she spoke to me yesterday her tone was one of challenge. Subtle no doubt but you can almost smell the acrid air of schemes and plots. Sheesh. You should have counted the number of times my eyes rolled and I had to look the other way when everthing I have said to her before and she refuted, which she then said to the Chairman last night and then made it sound as if it came from her and that she totally supports me and whatever I am doing. Phew. The cheek of her. Blah. She was nitpicking on my proposal before the meeting started. Came especially early to try and unnerve me. But during the meeting, she just went on and on about how good a job I did for the proposal. Bah.

Can't stand her. Got to go pig out tonight to destress now. Haiz.