Sometimes wisdom hits you in the strangest place at the strangest time. I was washing the dishes this evening when God's words leapt up at me. I had read about a girl's struggle with God's authority earlier this afternoon and how she had problem surrendering ALL to God although she had seen His goodness on her family and she herself knows of her love she had problems submitting totally to God as she wanted to try things out herself. Sounds pretty much like me. And although I had gradually begun to let go of many things and emotions, I had yet to confess to God all my sins and weaknesses and I know this was one last step I had to take for total release. Before God can work His power in me, I had to open up myself to His hands.

It's a slow and painful process but I think I'm getting on the path now. It tough but it's getting easier. What I was once afraid of letting go and forgetting I now think it's not such a big deal anymore. It's sad but I can seek peace in God's love.

Ramble ramble.....