I was sick the past two weeks, caught a cold. But before that, I had become disinterested in my work too. Just found it a challenge to wake myself up each morning to go to work.

Not that I hate my work. In fact it had nothing to do with work. Rather it had more to do with the people I am working with and for. Then again, at the end of the day I have to tell myself these people are just behaving in a normal, expected manner. I should not upset myself so much with them and be too bothered with how they are. As long as I do my job well and stand faultless, they cannot do much to me. The irony of course is that the powers that be up above me have not exactly been mean to me. In fact my boss is quite generous towards me and my colleagues have noted so too. But then it is really the general overall operations and management that really drags one's spirits down.

Can you believe that for a few miserable hundered dollars worth of the 13th month wage I have to get it in two instalments and it is now March but I have received only the first half of it. Any one will find that a stinko right?

In any case, just as I was feeling shitty working at a stink-hole like this, my boss announced to me he will be bringing me to the US of A with him to attend some conferences and meet some vendors. Whoopee right?! Unfortunately, it came at a time when I was templating leaving. How ironic. I could almost swear it was as if he heard my discontent and is dangling this in front of me to make me stay. Then today he told me to make a business trip up to my Bangkok office without one of my colleagues who is supposed to go up with me to conduct a workshop there. The funny thing is that guy should be the one to go and I stay back because he is the one conducting the class, not me. Yet my boss did not ask me to stay behind instead. It felt like he is dangling a carrot in front of me to distract me from the welfare and benefits discontent.

Anyway, I decided to just do as I am told and think less. Carry on in a robotic manner till I have amassed enough 'wealth' before moving on to the next phase of my life. Heehee...

Therefore, AMELIKA.... Here I come!