I have been sneezing non-stop, but the good thing is it seems to be tailing off as it is not as numerous or violent anymore. And I am beginning to sleep better at night because I can breathe again. No more jerking awake from suffocation. Seriously.

I have been officially confirmed at my workplace, even though it was not suppose to be until February next year. Well, I have not received the letter yet but it was an official announcement at the management meeting on Monday this week. One of the older staff pointed out I am one of the rarity, since the company was started. Only one or two other people before me long, long time ago was confirmed before the probation ended.

And it comes with an increment too. Not sure how much yet. Hope it will not slip through the fingers...

Anyway, I am happy with the path my work is moving along this year. Maybe it is becoming a career. Why not?

On a side note, I am not too sure what is expected of me in some other quarters. Hey, what am I suppose to think or do if no one bothers with me? So am I in or out? If I am in is it because I squeezed my way through? If I am out, was I left out or did I opt out somehow? Why am I always expected to smile and accept whatever is thrown my way but I cannot ever express displeasure of any sort. Or I get condemned. It does get sickening.

Well, whatever. It is definitely not because I am not affected or bothered. Rather it is because I have promised myself that I will treat myself nicer this year and I will not allow anything external to affect how I feel. And I cannot remember whining so much about life this year anyway. So things must be good generally still.

I am thinking I might need to make a trip to me KL office again sometime this month but it does not seem that I have any empty slots left on the calendar. Too many things to finish before the year ends. Too many projects outside of work.

I am tired, but in a warm fuzzy sort of way. The kind you can unconsciously doze off to sleep, gently and deeply. Nice.