I have not had a proper toilet session for almost a week now. Just can...not go... URGH! Talk about agony.

Thought-flash: my body is not the only thing having constipation. I think I have been playing great pretender for a while on some issues. Hee. Ah well, I can count off the top of my head a list of things I need to do but I am just such a procrastinator. Oh well. At least I am a happy-go-lucky procrastinator. I think. Kekeke.

On another note, what I thought was some cool-off time for all turned out to be a pretty big mistake on my part. I figured it will be easier to reconcile when defences are less obstructive but then maybe striking while the iron is hot is preferable to some.

I have been re-reading what I write before I post each time but I guess somehow I always come off sounding sacarstic and hypocritical (???!!!). But I do mean my apology and I am sincere in moving on cordially, if nothing else.

I am just not good at face-to-face reconciliation or negotiation or whatever you call it.

I am hurting too.

But if my friendship is deemed poisonous and destructive to you then it is your right and decision to leave.

Life is about choices. I do wish all well. Sincerely.