Today is the beginning of a new beginning. Yesterday has passed and it took with it the unhappiness of the past months and the dying ambers of HIS memories. Something happened yesterday. The same way something happened three years ago. I took a risk then. I am taking another risk now. Different risks, but still risk. HE will always remain in a corner of my mind and heart but HE will upset me no more. Will I still care about HIM? Of course, but I am drawing a line and a distance between us henceforth.

Three years ago yesterday I asked if HE liked me and if HE wants to be with me. Three years later I let go of the pain and haunting grief. Three years later I am walking down a different path. A path I never thought I would take. Then again, many things happened in the past three years which I never thought I would do either.

I am different. I have changed. Maybe you can tell maybe you cannot see. It does not matter. You may judge or prosecute me. But it is my choice and I stand by it. You may not recognise me anymore but I love you all just the same. What I am not saying is to save you from heartaches and disappointments when you know. Just be my friend, not my judge. God is judging me already.