Someone thought I was a uni grad. Said I had an air about me that says so. Huh? Haha, well if only future prospective employers all just assume so too...

I am actually getting a kick out of going to the gym. Now I am always planning and wondering when is the next time I can make it for a session. There is a strange sense of satisfaction and accomplishment with sweating it out. It feels like all the frustrations and unhappiness all just ooze out of the pores together with the perspiration. At the end of it, you are so tired you just slip into a deep slumber and before you know it, morning has come and it is another day.

I am definitely much happier now but the heart is still not agreeing with the head. Every ounce of me says not to be silly and not waste my time waiting for uncertainty. On the other hand, the heart cannot help but be soft on the man you loved so much before and still loves. You forgive and forget every wrong and every tear and you still look to him for solace and comfort.

I am feeling lighter but I am not any less confused. I am just living each day as it comes and try to be as happy as I can. I am not going to think anymore so as not to add on to the confusion that is already swirling wildly inside me.

Eat, sleep, work, study... Enough to keep me occupied for the time being.