I was feeling to tired to blog actually. But then I remembered there was something I wanted to announce: 'I put on weight!' Yep. That's right, Uncle James weighed me at the gym today when I told him I think I put on weight because the pants are no longer as loose. And the scales showed 39.9kg. Not bad. Our target is to hit 43kg. Hee. Uncle James was quite impressed that despite my small stature, I was quite strong in my arms and legs; puny as I am. Haha. Don't mess with me.
*hai-ya!* *karate kick*
Can you believe that I worked OT almost every night this week? Even when I had Saturday off I was still wondering if I should go back to work. There just seem to be so much to be done, just waiting to swallow me up. It is really hard to concentrate and churn out reports and proposals and letters in the day too when one keeps getting interrupted by phonecalls and visits and meetings. Gosh, I am really tired. Fortunately this time round I truly enjoy my work and it is by choice that I stayed back to clear the workload. While I did not purposely stay back for show and pretend to be hardworking, it certainly helps that people noticed and acknowledged my presence at 10pm in the night. Ha, promotions and pay-raises here I come... Of course, I am only wishing...
On the other hand, I neglected my schoolwork and skipped several classes because I was so caught up and overwhelmed with work. Sigh, got to put in more effort there too. Does not help at all that this semester everything goes by individual projects. No more sharing of workload...
Well, there is certainly much more to be said, but between work, school and making sure I clock enough hours at the gym ('Hey! I've already paid the membership after all?!'), I am all maxed out. The workload is only getting heavier and heavier even though I have an assistant now to help share the burden. But as the world turns, everyday there is a new project to handle before the current ones are even up and running on their own. Can you even begin to imagine the amount of planning, coordinating and proposing I have to come up with; not to mention that I now have to start running around outside to meet potential sponsors, donors and collaborators. Phew! I am breathless just typing this out.
On a more sombre note, and one which I believe most of you are more concerned about, I have started thinking a little about how things stand between me and God. While I never had the intention to turn from God totally, I guess I have not exactly sat down and figure out just what is wrong and what I should do. On the bright side, I never really let go of God. Many times I still find myself calling out or reaching out to Him, habit or subconscious? Better than nothing right? Well, give me some more time, I am sure I will be able to walk out of the valley somehow. I know you are all withholding your comments and concern now, maybe because you are afraid telling me anything now will drive me further away from God. I appreciate the time-out from all of you, after all, would I not know whatever encouragements, advice or 'gospel truths' that you want so much to dish out to me? Really thankful for not nagging me or pressurizing me during this time. It has indeed made things alot easier on me.
Well, it is past one-thirty in the morning. Better sleep more, tons to do tomorrow, even at home and away from work. I am really lagging behind in my school assignments.
