I want to thank my friends. All of you out there who have been looking out for me and watching my back. I know you were all there, one time or another, wondering what in the world is the next stupid or crazy thing I am going to to do next. Haha... I can see you all nodding your heads and smirking away. It's ok, go ahead and laugh in my face even if you want. I find the mental image funny too. Kekeke. Anyway the point I'm trying to make here is: I might have seem all lost and bewildered recently but really, I have given things alot of thought. It does not mean that I have always managed to figure things out or that I have accepted what life has thrown at me the last few months. There are times when I seemed to have walked out of the valley and everything before me appears so clear and sunny, and there are times when the sun went behind the clouds and shadows darken my path. On some days my entries may read like I have totally recovered and moved on totally. Yet the very next day the entry may be no different from the very first few I wrote.

Truly, these last few months have been a very rough roller-coaster ride for me and sometimes it feels like I forgot the safety harness and I might get flung out any moment. Whether it was an uphill climb or downhill rush, the core emotion behind it all was sadness. Sadness and a sense of loss. Not just loss of someone I loved. But also loss of my self. I tried very hard in the last couple of months to find back myself and also who I can be and want to be. I'm not saying I have found myself now. Nor am I saying that I have reached a point where I have 'arrived'. I am only saying that I am still at a discovery stage, still on a journey of exploration of what is possible for me to do and be. And I am saying that I am doing well. The moods still swing as and when they want but I'll be fine. I will not be beaten down again or see only bleakness ahead of me. So, just bear with me when I start 'swinging' ok? Haha.

Tada! Thanks everyone. In your own little way, spoken or otherwise, I have felt your concern and care and it has nourished and built me up in my darkest moments.