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Kekeke...

Interesting pillows. I am going to get one for my dear daddy for his birthday, and one for myself. Hahaha...

For my dada...

And this is for moi-hahaha....

First day of my two weeks leave! Yea! Been waiting a long time for this. Haiz, actually I have been home for the first week and most of the second week of the month too anyway; the aching back has been keeping me away from the office. But to those of you who are concerned, I am alot better now thank you! Still cannot sit for too long at one stretch and still tires easily but it is not as bad anymore. I have collected my x-ray today and will be seeing the doctor tomorrow. As far as I can tell, there is nothing serious but was asked to note some 'lipping'... What is that?!! And it is at the top of the spine, near the base of the neck and not at my lower back as expected for a fall to my bum. Hmm... Well, will know tomorrow after I have seen the doctor.

OH! That perverted old man has been calling me today. On my handphone but I refused to answer. Called the office too on the pretext of work. How do I know? Because my colleagues keep messaging me to ask me things, inane issues under the pervert. Duh! The mere thought of him still makes my hair stand. Cannot help but feel repulsed by him. Well, as a brother queried: 'Is he not the sugar daddy I have been asking for?' The answer is a loud emphatic NO. Why? Because he is older than my own daddy, and really too urgh. He simply assumed I like him. Or will like/fall for him. Come on, maybe if he were to be suave as Tommy Lee Jones or even Robert De Niro. Even even Patrick Tse... But he is just a perverted sick old man who is not even hesitant to let me know of his many 'amours'. YUCK! Frankly, I am not against going out with an older man; but up to 10-15 years is the maximum. Why in the world would I want to go out with a grandfather? Duh-duh!

Anyway, while I lament my lack of choices on one hand, I do know very well it is only because I am not going out to meet people. Haha. Nowadays, I head straight home after work and am too lazy to go out on weekends. How to meet anybody? I do not even get to see my next-door neighbours. Sheesh. Haha. And I am also beginning to realist that this could very well be the year that I start getting match-made to/by. Whatever. Everywhere I go if people know I am single the next question will be: 'Shall I introduce you to someone?' Do people really know so many others who need help meeting potentials?! Have I reached the stage where I need help already? Nah. I refuse to bow to pressure. I give my self till 35 before I panic. That gives me another 10 years and 3 days to motherhood stress.

Yep. Me turning 25 in a few days more. Happy birthday to moi self in advance. I love myself more each year. Hee.

The back was aching badly the last two days. Decided I should go see my GP and get a referral. What a great difference in the consultation compared to the ones I got from the polyclinic doctors. I went twice to two differnt polyclinics and I have only one conclusion: go to them only if you are not dying or in serious conditions. I was barely in the room for five minutes on both occasions before they declared me fine, and this was even before they asked me how I fell or when and how do I feel. In contrast, my GP asked me questions about the kind of aches I am getting and where and how long has it been, ON TOP of giving me a thorough body check-up. In the end, even though she concluded I might not have broken anything but because of the persistent aches after two weeks she will still send me for an x-ray. Is this not what responsible medical consultation is about? Of course, there might be some people out there who think that I am expecting the royal treatment for my measly payment. I prefer to insist that this is only professionalism at work.

Anyway, I do not think I will die or be paralysed from this unfortunate fall. But I seriously believe that I will have to pay heavily for it when I am old if I do not take care of it now. Hey! How to go backpacking with a charming young boy then if I am confined to the bed by my old bones?! Haha.

Well, it is only the second week and fourteenth day of the new year and I have spent most of it on bed already. Never mind that I had some REALLY disturbing things happening to me this past week too. Nothing short of a rude shock. In fact, it happened so subtlely and so smoothly I did not have time to react the way I should have. And for that, I am thoroughly disappointed in myself. I just hope that by 'disappearing' for some time my message will somehow get across to the person. Like a close friend said, 'he was too smooth and an old hand at what he was doing. You had no way of fighting it at that point'. Hmm, right. Anyway, I have a speech prepared now for if and when he does call again. And I will spare all the niceties. Unnecessary to someone wily like he is. Horrid man.

Okay, I got to go for my x-ray now. Sitting too long in front of the screen already.

Ha... The agony of not being able to sit up straight and long. The back cries out in aching agony after the first five minutes.

Anyway, I had wanted to write about my gym regime ever since I signed up. Amazingly, I perservered enough for me to say I AM quite proud of myself. It has been fun going to the gym, whether with my brother or for my training sessions. I guess deep down inside I always knew I was a gym chick, haha, just that I was not comfortable in an unfamiliar territory. There was a hiatus for two months when I was really swamped with work and then illness but I was glad I got back into reasonable shape quite fast, although I had become quite weak then... Sadly my trainer has left. Sigh. Always let down by personal trainers, all puns and innuendoes intended. Haha. Well, anyway last I heard from my trainer, all the rest of his colleagues wanted to know if I had any sessions left that they could take over. Haha. Fat chance. I finished mine long ago, my last few sessions were my mum's.

In any case, I guess even if I did not sign up with any other trainer they would not mind giving me a 'helping hand' now and then when they see me in the gym. Only thing is I doubt I would be going for a week or two now...

Got to go, back is beginning to ache.

Well well, I fell down four steps on the stairs on the first day of the new year. More like slipped on the first step and bounced my way uncontrollably down the rest. A little like Tigger as I related to a friend. Haha. Yea, bum hurts. Followed by the rest of the back because of the impact. Followed by a headache. I went to a Chinese doctor for 'tui na' and the truth is I teared. Almost on the verge of crying too. I hurt the entire length of my back, down to my bum. Ouch! And so I spent today resting in bed. The sinseh said it will be a tricky recovery and it will not be so easy. So here goes...

I messaged my ED, Doreen and she lamented on my behalf what a thing to happen to me on new year. But my retort was that with the worst luck on the first day of the new year, I can probably look forward to a great year ahead henceforth. She commented that it was good I was so positive. Well, bum hurts like hell and the back aches like mad but I can be positive about it and have a good laugh and good year or lament non-stop and make myself downright miserable while recuperating all alone at home and for the rest of the year, cursing and swearing and blaming the fall for my unhappiness. Nah, I will not live thus!

Ok, another day lying in bed tomorrow. Typing this is killing my back already...