Kekeke, I'm actually admonished by some people when I don't write every day and update them. You're all such caring people (aka nosy parkers, hahahaha....)

Okay, here's the update:

Last night was quite an enjoyable session (although my bum is aching and my legs are like jelly now), both because of the workout and the bantering with the trainer. But as some people are so uptight with the last few days' entries, I shall not relate last night's details here. Haha. You'll have to call me to find out. But here's what I'll say: He asked me for a second date so I'm assuming that he did enjoy the date on Saturday night, contrary to what I thought earlier. I did not answer him yes or no. I won't call or message him on my part for two weeks just to let things settle and cool off a little. (Damn it's hard! And today's only the first day, haha.)

And the bonus I found last night? He used to attend church. Nope he's not a Christian or anything he just felt like going so he went. Hey! At least that's a step in the right direction right, to all my cynics out there. Maybe next date can ask him go church with me. Kekeke...

I guess I'm still feeling hurt and disappointed and betrayed. But I know I wasn't as adamant as I was even just a month ago. It's not simply because I met someone who is interesting me. Even before that I had decided that I should just let go of everything and be kind to myself. I want to be loved and I deserved to be loved, everyone does. I can choose how I want to be loved and who I want to love me. For now, I'm not too sure yet but at least I'm getting back out on the scene and accepting people. (ok, but that doesn't mean you go around matchmaking me alright!? And I still reserve the right to reject. Hahaha.)

Ouch..., maybe I should claim that massage session too... hehe *wink wink*. Guess who's the masseuse.

Ramble ramble.....

p.s. Had this crazy idea to direct him (the trainer) to this blog. Hahaha... Sheesh. Just imagine...