Couldn't sleep. The mind was restless the whole night. Feeling a little confused and disoriented. Don't know why things are happening the way they are.

I was looking forward to last night's session at the gym and that is such a rarity for such an inactive slop as I. Not quite sure if it was because of the trainer (haha) or the conscious fact that I want to make changes to my lifestyle and am now more open to embrace new things. Whatever. But the thing was when I was down at the gym, I did not feel any of the insecurities I used to feel when embarking on new things. I was on some kind of high it seems. When the trainer finally showed up and was taking down my recods and everything things started to roll along. Guess it started when he took my blood pressure,and my systolic reading went well over a hundred and this has never happened before! He was kind of amazed and ask if I had high blood pressure to which I replied,:

Me: 'it's your presence.'

He laughed and said I bullshit.

Then he asked me this:

Trainer: 'any heart conditions?'
Me: 'a broken heart.'

He was stunned for a moment, guess he hasn't heard this line before at work. Ha. We crapped a little and then it came to my weight (which to the curious and uninformed, is 37kg):
Trainer: 'that is very underweight.'
Me: 'yes I know that.'
Trainer: (consults a chart and turns to me) 'that is seriously VERY underweight!'
Me: 'haha, yes i know that.'

Went on to take my measurements. Came to my waist and he just stared at the reading on the measuring tape around my waist and gave me an incredulous look. (it's 23cm, yes.)

Started asking me about my diet and lifestyle (aka execerise routine, haha). Couldn't figure out why the weight loss when I'm eating normal.
Me: 'it's (the weight loss) a condition that comes with a broken heart.'

And then he offered to mend my broken heart. Hahaha.... things started getting interesting then. We chatted for a while about my 'condition and ailment' until I suddenly asked if it has become a counselling session instead, which prompted him to offer showing me around the place. Ha.

He put me on the treadmill for a fitness test and we continued talking. That caused me to become breathless, and he remarked that my heart rate is very fast; to which I tried to convince him it was because of him. (HAHA, yes I was blatantly flirting with him)

He asked if I studied law. I said no, mass comm; law takes too long. And he said no wonder I can talk so well, got a reply for everything. Along the way he asked what was my plan for the night and I said I'm going out. And he asked me where. I asked if he wanted to meet me and managed to laugh and divert him to other topics.

Towards the end of the session, he asked if I wanted his number. Haha.... I told him I'll take it if he wants to give.

I also remembered that I had yet to reply him where I was headed but decided I shall wait for a little longer to conclude if I wanted to tell him. Over dinner, he sms-ed me and said I've not told him yet where I'm going. I decided to tell him and it took him about 15mins before he replied that he's headed that way too. Which made my friends all concluded that during the lapse he was trying to get people to go where I'm going to create the 'oh, what a coincidence' syndrome. Kekeke.

So anyway, at the end of the night he messaged me and asked me out but I told him I was already home. Then he asked me out the next day, to which I replied ok. Here comes the dilemma: I'm not sure why I agreed to go out with him. Yes he's good-looking and interesting but the underlying suspicion is that he reminds me of the other HIM.

There are other parallels to this issue but I shall end here for now as it seems to be getting too long.... Ponder on it for me ya and then tag me with your opinions.

Ramble ramble.....