In a span of less than 24 hours, Missy Bel had a complete turnabout of emotions and moods. Feeling even slightly better than she did before Sunday, when she read THE EMAIL. What happened? Read on.

30 June 2004

0900hr to 1130hr: Feels like crap. No mood to do anything. Woke up late for work. What the heck. Can't be bothered. Must put in that off-in-lieu request form by today! Cannot take it anymore...

1130hr: When's lunch? Hungry. Did not take lunch today. Sigh...

1145hr: Don't care, just go eat now. Can't think without food. Still feels like crap.

1200hr: Shit. Taking my lunch so slowly but it is too over too fast. Feels really lousy. Wants to talk to someone. Maybe I'll call S. See how she is. Focusing on other people's problems might distract me from mine. Go kaypoh a bit.

1215hr: Sigh, she's busy. Her lunch hour is at 1pm. Call her later. Dozed off on the bench on the roof terrace. Nice weather, but a little chilly, wearing too thinly, no cardi... Haiz.

1255hr: The guys went down to look for her for lunch. How nice of them. How come no one comes looking for me for lunch when I feel so crappy? Haiz. Think I shall go back to work.

1330hr: Yea, the IT guy is here. I can finally set up my email accounts properly and start to work.

1445hr: YES! I can finally install MSN and ICQ. No more feeling alienated when I work in TPY now. Haiz, still not in the mood to work.

1500hr: Collected cheque for ballroom booking deposit. Shall go down personally to Fort Canning to pay up. Gives me some time off work and out in the streets.

1600hr: Panting a little from the climb up the hill. Phew. Should start exercising more seriously. After all, I paid for the gym already.

1615hr: Ok, everything's settled. Now to head back to office for 5 o'clock meeting. Hope my colleague brought the right folder down for me from Bedok... Still feels lousy. And a little sleepy now too.

1700hr: No time to feel anything now! Staff meeting with the Chairman and 2 Directors sitting in. Presenting later. Think; how do I want to present my part...

1730hr: Not thinking much but feeling shitty still. Oops! Handphone buzzed! Got an sms. From the waiter down at the pub. He's asking if I'm going down tonight. Hmm... well, I do feel like shit and I don't mind going down honestly, but got class... By the time it ends it's like so late already.... Tells him no.

1745hr: Oh, he sounds kind of disappointed. Turns out he won't be around for the next week or so... Oh wel, see how later.

1830hr: Finally the meeting is over! I'm so late for class. Rush rush rush. Hungry....

1915hr: On the bus at last. Think it will be past 8 o'clock when I get to class. Haiz. Well, better late than never.

1930hr: Talking to my godbrother on the phone. We tried analysing me and the email. Hmm. Bah! Decided I'll call him later to confirm if we are to go down to the pub.

2015hr: Hey, the class is having their break! Great, I'm just in time to join in. Ha.

2020hr: I have absolutely no idea what the lecturer is talking about. We are suppose to do a research paper on our own. But I didn't catch what the paper is suppose to be like and how and what we are to do.

2030hr: Think I'll continue the letter I was writing to my friend in China. Yes, in Chinese.

2130hr: Oh, class ended early. We've all zoned out so the lecturer decided to let us off early. Ok, quick call kor. See if he still wants to go and if he's picking me up. Spoke to some classmates about a project I have in mind and they all seem keen. Ok, got to work on it then.

2155hr: Sheesh, no answer. So do I go home or what? I'll wait at the bus-stop. No answer means I go home when bus comes. Oh, R buzzed. Ask me what the plan is.

2205hr: Bus' here! Hop on. Haiz, thought I can go unwind a while at the pub...

2215hr: Oops, R called. Said he can pick me up at my place and we meet kor there. Duh. I'm on the way home already. Says he'll meet me at my place. Ok, as long as it's free ride. Haha. Hungry. Not had dinner yet!

2230hr: Ok, bike ride's here. Head down to the pub and grab dinner on the way.

2245hr: DINNER... Where's kor? Always late. And not answering my calls too. URGH.

2315hr: Ok, dinner's done. Shall stay for just one drink and we'll go. Tired. Actually don't feel like drinking. Oh well, will just go and say hi to the waiter before he goes off next week. Don't think I'll be going down before he comes back anyway. The research project seems heavy-weight! Better stay home more to work. First proposal due on next Wednesday, a 1000-word paper!

2430hr: Home! Boring night anyway. No one is in the mood for anything. Still feeling horrible.

2445hr: I see my bed!!! Ahh... Ok, better send that email R asking for first.

0115hr: Shower time. Sleepy. Still shitty.

0140hr: Chatting with R online. He's talking to me about the email. I got a conclusion. I shall do as I feel like doing, and continue on as I have before the email came. Yea. Right now, I feel like texting the trainer and tell him how I feel. Hee.

0210hr: Shoot! HE's online too. And HE's text me online before I can hide. Sigh, asking if i received HIS email. Why oh why, does HE have to appear at this time? Sigh... Shall I answer HIM? Ok I'll just say yes and go off.

0213hr: Ok, sending message. Told the trainer that I'm a little interested in going out on a few more dates with him and I'd like to know how he feels also. Asked him to get back to me in the morning. Now, to bed...

0221hr: HUH? The phone buzzed. Who could it be? GASP, the trainer actually replied. Hmm, he's not sleeping yet. Ooh, he said it was nice going out with me. Asked me where I am.

0225hr: Asked if I remembered the date we out on. Now why would he want to know that... Asked me a few times too.

0230hr: I asked him for the reason first before I give him the date. Yes, Missy Bel notes down all her appointments in that little blue book of hers so it's easy to track. He promised to tell me later...

0247hr: Dozing off.... BUZZ. Told me to go sleep first. He's still busy. Ok. Not waiting anyway. Tired. But now, I'm feeling happy. SMILE, a grin is plastered on my face and the heart finally feels light again.

0330hr: Another loud buzz jolted me out of my light sleep. Scared the shit out of me. Turns out to be a friend who's still up. ARGH!. Can't go back to sleep anymore.

0335hr: The mind begins running a hundred thoughts a minute. Oh no, another sleepless night.

0530hr: Just beginning to doze off....

0810hr: LATE!