I feel a breakthrough coming. Once more.
But now, right this moment, I am just very, very sleepy.
Night world.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Perhaps...
Your Personality Is |
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them! |
I thought it would be something like grey or brown. Ha.
Your Heart Is Blue |
 Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well. You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return. Your flirting style: Friendly Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish What you bring to relationships: Loyalty |
This must be the other side of me others seldom see...
You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament |
 Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace. You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions. You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional. You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others. While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything. You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams. You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. |
But I am not getting anyone!!!
Your Love Element Is Metal |
 In love, you inspire and respect your partner. For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience. You attract others with wit and a bit of flash. Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you. Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life. You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past. You connect best with: Earth Avoid: Fire You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other |
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Monday, January 09, 2006
The doctor made me laugh today. Asked me why I did not go back to him immediately when I found the medicine did not work. And he said I scare him everytime I cough. Gee, are my symptoms that serious? Anyway one good thing I established today is that he remembers me well enough for me to just call him for small things next time. After all, he was the one who asked me to call first next time to update my situation.
Sometimes I find life really funny, especially when I look back on how things turned out for me. I still cannot figure out if mine is a blessed life or cursed. I guess it is all just a matter of from which perspective am I looking at things.
How true it is when it was said that the only constant is change and that what is predictable is that life never is predictable. Cliché. But true.
Well, no whining. Because it only makes you feel worse than you already do. Always think the best in people and situations, until they have proven themselves otherwise beyond a reasonable doubt.
Have a happy 2006. Be happy every day.
Sometimes I find life really funny, especially when I look back on how things turned out for me. I still cannot figure out if mine is a blessed life or cursed. I guess it is all just a matter of from which perspective am I looking at things.
How true it is when it was said that the only constant is change and that what is predictable is that life never is predictable. Cliché. But true.
Well, no whining. Because it only makes you feel worse than you already do. Always think the best in people and situations, until they have proven themselves otherwise beyond a reasonable doubt.
Have a happy 2006. Be happy every day.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
In retrospect, or rather, in summary, the year that has gone by has been a wonderful year because of several reasons:
1) I have been happier last year than I had been for the past few years.
2) I have moved along significantly in my career, towards the goal I have set myself.
3) Nothing really nasty or unfortunate happened to me that I can still recall now.
4) I met many new and interesting people, some nice and here to stay. Some just passing by to add some colours to my existence.
5) I am learning to assert myself and my opinions in a non-agressive way.
6) I have learnt that positive thinking and attitude DOES affect the way your life works out.
7) Believe I can and I can.
8) Hang around people who likes and loves you just as you are. Only then will you learn to accept yourself as you are and see the good they see in you.
9) Once in a while, take time off to do absolutely nothing but sleep.
10) Work will always be there. Get off when you have to.
My health has not been this good the second half of last year because of my allergies and I suffered alot for it, including being home sick on the first workday of the new year, today! But it has also allowed me to learn many new things about my body that I have overlooked before. So it is not all dismal.
The only lacking point in my life is perhaps someone to call when I am down and someone to hug when I am cold. But it is better to welcome the chilly wind in my face as a refreshing breeze than feel sorry for myself. Nope, I am way... past being sorry and miserable. I want to be happy.
Wee.....
Happy as a butterfly.
1) I have been happier last year than I had been for the past few years.
2) I have moved along significantly in my career, towards the goal I have set myself.
3) Nothing really nasty or unfortunate happened to me that I can still recall now.
4) I met many new and interesting people, some nice and here to stay. Some just passing by to add some colours to my existence.
5) I am learning to assert myself and my opinions in a non-agressive way.
6) I have learnt that positive thinking and attitude DOES affect the way your life works out.
7) Believe I can and I can.
8) Hang around people who likes and loves you just as you are. Only then will you learn to accept yourself as you are and see the good they see in you.
9) Once in a while, take time off to do absolutely nothing but sleep.
10) Work will always be there. Get off when you have to.
My health has not been this good the second half of last year because of my allergies and I suffered alot for it, including being home sick on the first workday of the new year, today! But it has also allowed me to learn many new things about my body that I have overlooked before. So it is not all dismal.
The only lacking point in my life is perhaps someone to call when I am down and someone to hug when I am cold. But it is better to welcome the chilly wind in my face as a refreshing breeze than feel sorry for myself. Nope, I am way... past being sorry and miserable. I want to be happy.
Wee.....
Happy as a butterfly.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Guess what someone calls me? Haha...
Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your outgoing and friendly nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!
You were almost a: Kitten or a Bear Cub
You are least like a: Groundhog or a DucklingWhat Cute Animal Are You?
You Are A: Puppy!
Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your outgoing and friendly nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!You were almost a: Kitten or a Bear Cub
You are least like a: Groundhog or a DucklingWhat Cute Animal Are You?
Sunday, December 25, 2005
It is strange how some people see you as inspiring, while others just think you are a hypocrite.
It is even stranger how some people warm to you on the first meeting while some may not know you even after years.
Sometime I am at a loss too if I should continue moving forward or stop and rest my feet a little. If I should go for what I want, or just let nature take its course.
There is never a clear answer I guess. Only how right it feels to you at that moment in time.
The split second decision to go or stay.
It is even stranger how some people warm to you on the first meeting while some may not know you even after years.
Sometime I am at a loss too if I should continue moving forward or stop and rest my feet a little. If I should go for what I want, or just let nature take its course.
There is never a clear answer I guess. Only how right it feels to you at that moment in time.
The split second decision to go or stay.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
There are a hundred and one things I can blog about. A thousand and one things are going through my mind. And just a few weighing down my heart.
Then again, sometimes I wonder why bother opening up a can of worms if people are happy the way things are and you are better off forgotten.
Perhaps it is for an attempt at self-justification or clarification. Then again, does it matter to anyone?
Christmas is coming. I hate Christmases. Always have for a long time.
And if I refuse to go church on 364 other days, I will not be a hypocrite and be found in church on Christmas morning.
It does not mean a thing to me or God.
Then again, sometimes I wonder why bother opening up a can of worms if people are happy the way things are and you are better off forgotten.
Perhaps it is for an attempt at self-justification or clarification. Then again, does it matter to anyone?
Christmas is coming. I hate Christmases. Always have for a long time.
And if I refuse to go church on 364 other days, I will not be a hypocrite and be found in church on Christmas morning.
It does not mean a thing to me or God.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
The other night I was at this corporate function where someone asked me what I do for leisure. Usually I will just say I sleep any free time I get. But that night, the impromptu reply was that 'I volunteer'. Haha. Yep. And I enjoy myself very much. While I am not the type who is comfortable with one-on-one interaction, even while I was working at the nursing home, I do find it very meaningful doing my bit for people who really need whatever I have to give. So no, I have not learnt how to read to the elderly or feed the young, I am enjoying planning all sorts of activities to better their lives; whether it is fundraising for the poor, collecting books for the young, or simply arranging a makeover session for the old and lonely.
I have come to strongly advocate that it is not whether you can, but if you will. It does not take a lot of time or money, just a little committment once in a while. Everyone has the same number of hours in a day, it is how we choose to spend them. Granted, often people who do not volunteer because they do not how to get about it, not because they are not willing. It certainly makes everything alot more fun and persuasive if you join a group of like-minded people to get things going. I am glad that I found mine.
It is tiring no doubt, on top of the hectic work life and minimal social life. But definitely worth every bit of it. If any of you are interested just give me a call. No obligation to join but you are welcome to sit in whatever meeting or activities we have. Volunteering is not all about depressing issues and people. Often the fellowship with other volunteers are very meaningful too, not to mention enriching.
Go on, find a cause you are passionate about or always wanted to be involved in. Then ask around how you can be involved. It often is so much easier than we all think.
Be a volunteer.
I have come to strongly advocate that it is not whether you can, but if you will. It does not take a lot of time or money, just a little committment once in a while. Everyone has the same number of hours in a day, it is how we choose to spend them. Granted, often people who do not volunteer because they do not how to get about it, not because they are not willing. It certainly makes everything alot more fun and persuasive if you join a group of like-minded people to get things going. I am glad that I found mine.
It is tiring no doubt, on top of the hectic work life and minimal social life. But definitely worth every bit of it. If any of you are interested just give me a call. No obligation to join but you are welcome to sit in whatever meeting or activities we have. Volunteering is not all about depressing issues and people. Often the fellowship with other volunteers are very meaningful too, not to mention enriching.
Go on, find a cause you are passionate about or always wanted to be involved in. Then ask around how you can be involved. It often is so much easier than we all think.
Be a volunteer.
Friday, December 02, 2005
I have been sneezing non-stop, but the good thing is it seems to be tailing off as it is not as numerous or violent anymore. And I am beginning to sleep better at night because I can breathe again. No more jerking awake from suffocation. Seriously.
I have been officially confirmed at my workplace, even though it was not suppose to be until February next year. Well, I have not received the letter yet but it was an official announcement at the management meeting on Monday this week. One of the older staff pointed out I am one of the rarity, since the company was started. Only one or two other people before me long, long time ago was confirmed before the probation ended.
And it comes with an increment too. Not sure how much yet. Hope it will not slip through the fingers...
Anyway, I am happy with the path my work is moving along this year. Maybe it is becoming a career. Why not?
On a side note, I am not too sure what is expected of me in some other quarters. Hey, what am I suppose to think or do if no one bothers with me? So am I in or out? If I am in is it because I squeezed my way through? If I am out, was I left out or did I opt out somehow? Why am I always expected to smile and accept whatever is thrown my way but I cannot ever express displeasure of any sort. Or I get condemned. It does get sickening.
Well, whatever. It is definitely not because I am not affected or bothered. Rather it is because I have promised myself that I will treat myself nicer this year and I will not allow anything external to affect how I feel. And I cannot remember whining so much about life this year anyway. So things must be good generally still.
I am thinking I might need to make a trip to me KL office again sometime this month but it does not seem that I have any empty slots left on the calendar. Too many things to finish before the year ends. Too many projects outside of work.
I am tired, but in a warm fuzzy sort of way. The kind you can unconsciously doze off to sleep, gently and deeply. Nice.
I have been officially confirmed at my workplace, even though it was not suppose to be until February next year. Well, I have not received the letter yet but it was an official announcement at the management meeting on Monday this week. One of the older staff pointed out I am one of the rarity, since the company was started. Only one or two other people before me long, long time ago was confirmed before the probation ended.
And it comes with an increment too. Not sure how much yet. Hope it will not slip through the fingers...
Anyway, I am happy with the path my work is moving along this year. Maybe it is becoming a career. Why not?
On a side note, I am not too sure what is expected of me in some other quarters. Hey, what am I suppose to think or do if no one bothers with me? So am I in or out? If I am in is it because I squeezed my way through? If I am out, was I left out or did I opt out somehow? Why am I always expected to smile and accept whatever is thrown my way but I cannot ever express displeasure of any sort. Or I get condemned. It does get sickening.
Well, whatever. It is definitely not because I am not affected or bothered. Rather it is because I have promised myself that I will treat myself nicer this year and I will not allow anything external to affect how I feel. And I cannot remember whining so much about life this year anyway. So things must be good generally still.
I am thinking I might need to make a trip to me KL office again sometime this month but it does not seem that I have any empty slots left on the calendar. Too many things to finish before the year ends. Too many projects outside of work.
I am tired, but in a warm fuzzy sort of way. The kind you can unconsciously doze off to sleep, gently and deeply. Nice.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Ok, the year has gone by almost in a breeze. Before I go any further, below is a list of what I had planned to do for today, and what I DID do. Ha.
0930 Get out of bed
1230 Crawled out of bed
1030 Get the laundry done
Laundry is still in the basket
1130 Clean up my room and change the sheets
Room is still a mess and the sheets are still as it was
1230 Get lunch
1400 Got lunch
1400 Be at Esplanade for an appointment
1530 Left house with parents
So you see, basically whatever I had planned did not go exactly as I wanted. All because I slept late. But it is not my fault really, not that I am a lazy bum. Rather, it was because I must have stopped breathing at least four or five times last night because of my sinus and thus did not sleep well and so caused me to sleep in this morning. Sigh, the doctor said I can either have an operation, but it will recur few years down the road, or live with the problem OR, I can be on long-term medication, which means continually feeding my system with steriods and antibiotics. Not very attractive options. So I decided to live with it as long as I can. Well, at least I am happy.
Life has been pretty amazing this year. I got out of an unhappy work environment, found a job I like, working with people I can agree with; just received news of an early confirmation and an increment. Travelled more than I ever did the past 25 years, met more people and learnt more things of life than I had. More importantly, I am beginning to feel good about myself again after so long. I must say though a huge part of it has to do with me adjusting my attitude towards life and learning what should be my priorities and who should be my critics. It is not about surrounding myself with people who only say nice things about me, it is about being around people who are honest yet non-judgemental to me.
I have had a fruitful time this year. No regrets. No grudges.
0930 Get out of bed
1230 Crawled out of bed
1030 Get the laundry done
Laundry is still in the basket
1130 Clean up my room and change the sheets
Room is still a mess and the sheets are still as it was
1230 Get lunch
1400 Got lunch
1400 Be at Esplanade for an appointment
1530 Left house with parents
So you see, basically whatever I had planned did not go exactly as I wanted. All because I slept late. But it is not my fault really, not that I am a lazy bum. Rather, it was because I must have stopped breathing at least four or five times last night because of my sinus and thus did not sleep well and so caused me to sleep in this morning. Sigh, the doctor said I can either have an operation, but it will recur few years down the road, or live with the problem OR, I can be on long-term medication, which means continually feeding my system with steriods and antibiotics. Not very attractive options. So I decided to live with it as long as I can. Well, at least I am happy.
Life has been pretty amazing this year. I got out of an unhappy work environment, found a job I like, working with people I can agree with; just received news of an early confirmation and an increment. Travelled more than I ever did the past 25 years, met more people and learnt more things of life than I had. More importantly, I am beginning to feel good about myself again after so long. I must say though a huge part of it has to do with me adjusting my attitude towards life and learning what should be my priorities and who should be my critics. It is not about surrounding myself with people who only say nice things about me, it is about being around people who are honest yet non-judgemental to me.
I have had a fruitful time this year. No regrets. No grudges.