Look at Simon's face, almost bursting under the weight of wet sand. Kekeke...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
I am watching a show, and there is this scene where the female lead is telling the male lead to forget their past love:
'I have stopped loving you. I am sorry. Please forget me. I see what's going on in your life now know you have a new love; and seeing you happy makes me contented. Neverending pining is too painful. It is sometimes a blessing to be able to let go of a love. Start afresh and hold on to the present love, because when there is an expiry date, it makes the love all the more valuable.'
I just want to tell my friends and anyone who is reading this that letting go of your love over someone does not mean you do not care about the person anymore. It only means your love for the person has entered another level, and that you have learnt to love yourself better too. I have every right to say this because I have been through this too. There was a time when I was hurting and pining and wishing I could turn back the clock and stop Time. But I realised that I have to let go of that relationship in order to treasure it more, and that I owe it to myself to live a happier life. It is only now that I have let go that I can look back and smile and appreciate what I had before; and learnt that I should treasure whatever I have right now even more, before it is time to let that go as well.
It is said that the only constant in life is change. Things change, feelings change and so do people. Only when we learn to take things easy that we are better able to appreciate the present. Otherwise in our midst of pining and longing, we too will take the things in front of us for granted too.
Some of my friends are feeling really low, some so stressed by work. I just want to say that happiness is a state of mind that you decide to be in. No one can bring you happiness if you refuse to let go of your sadness. Life will not be pleasant if your attitude is that it sucks. I learnt this the hard way.
So please, love yourself a bit more. Tell yourself only you can bring yourself happiness. No one else has the ability to affect you if you do not allow them to.
On a lighter note, I was at Sentosa last Saturday with some of my colleagues. It has been almost a decade since I willingly and knowingly agree to an outdoor event which I know I will sure get tanned under the sun. True enough, before the day was over I was burning on my chest and shoulders. Then I suffered the fate of a peeling face and chapped lips, despite all efforts to moisturise and 'damage-control'. I come to the conclusion that I was right to have avoided the sun for almost a decade. I really look funny tanned. Now that I am peeling on my face it does not make things any better... AND the hilarious thing is, I now have a palm-like print across my upper back. The amazing thing is that this print is not a tanned or burnt print. Instead, it was like someone had put his hand on my back while I was under the sun so that all other parts of my back is tanned except where the hand was. Eerie right? At first when my colleagues pointed out to me we thought it was white spots. But when I went home and took a closer look I saw that it looked like a palm on my back. The stranger thing was this print did not turn up till it was two days after the tan. It was not there on Saturday evening itself. I told my mum I must have been given a palm strike by a ghost during the night. Just like I used to have mysterious bruises over me few years back when I wake up in the morning. Heh.
Well, no low back for the time being.
'I have stopped loving you. I am sorry. Please forget me. I see what's going on in your life now know you have a new love; and seeing you happy makes me contented. Neverending pining is too painful. It is sometimes a blessing to be able to let go of a love. Start afresh and hold on to the present love, because when there is an expiry date, it makes the love all the more valuable.'
I just want to tell my friends and anyone who is reading this that letting go of your love over someone does not mean you do not care about the person anymore. It only means your love for the person has entered another level, and that you have learnt to love yourself better too. I have every right to say this because I have been through this too. There was a time when I was hurting and pining and wishing I could turn back the clock and stop Time. But I realised that I have to let go of that relationship in order to treasure it more, and that I owe it to myself to live a happier life. It is only now that I have let go that I can look back and smile and appreciate what I had before; and learnt that I should treasure whatever I have right now even more, before it is time to let that go as well.
It is said that the only constant in life is change. Things change, feelings change and so do people. Only when we learn to take things easy that we are better able to appreciate the present. Otherwise in our midst of pining and longing, we too will take the things in front of us for granted too.
Some of my friends are feeling really low, some so stressed by work. I just want to say that happiness is a state of mind that you decide to be in. No one can bring you happiness if you refuse to let go of your sadness. Life will not be pleasant if your attitude is that it sucks. I learnt this the hard way.
So please, love yourself a bit more. Tell yourself only you can bring yourself happiness. No one else has the ability to affect you if you do not allow them to.
On a lighter note, I was at Sentosa last Saturday with some of my colleagues. It has been almost a decade since I willingly and knowingly agree to an outdoor event which I know I will sure get tanned under the sun. True enough, before the day was over I was burning on my chest and shoulders. Then I suffered the fate of a peeling face and chapped lips, despite all efforts to moisturise and 'damage-control'. I come to the conclusion that I was right to have avoided the sun for almost a decade. I really look funny tanned. Now that I am peeling on my face it does not make things any better... AND the hilarious thing is, I now have a palm-like print across my upper back. The amazing thing is that this print is not a tanned or burnt print. Instead, it was like someone had put his hand on my back while I was under the sun so that all other parts of my back is tanned except where the hand was. Eerie right? At first when my colleagues pointed out to me we thought it was white spots. But when I went home and took a closer look I saw that it looked like a palm on my back. The stranger thing was this print did not turn up till it was two days after the tan. It was not there on Saturday evening itself. I told my mum I must have been given a palm strike by a ghost during the night. Just like I used to have mysterious bruises over me few years back when I wake up in the morning. Heh.
Well, no low back for the time being.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I did a search of my name on yahoo search the other day. Hmm, the other person who has the exact same name as me seems like an impressive lady who fights for the rights of coloured women in the States. Well well well. Interesting.
Been very busy and caught up with work. Good thing is I am happy. Seems like some of my friends are not that happy. If I learnt anything this year, it is that attitude plays a very big part in how your life turns out and if you are ever going to be contented or happy with the present.
Sure, life can always be better. But at least it is not any worse right? Being the greedy beings that we are, we will always want more and hope for more. But I keep reminding myself, everything is two-way. You cannot expect always only to take and never give.
Doing a 3-quarters report of my life so far, I got to say it is not all that bad. I got to travel quite a fair bit this year, learnt alot, seen alot; and I am pleased with the path my life is taking now. It sure is getting exciting for me as far as I can see.
Contentment is an elusive thing, easy to explain difficult to practice. I am glad I am feeling contented now.
Nights.
Been very busy and caught up with work. Good thing is I am happy. Seems like some of my friends are not that happy. If I learnt anything this year, it is that attitude plays a very big part in how your life turns out and if you are ever going to be contented or happy with the present.
Sure, life can always be better. But at least it is not any worse right? Being the greedy beings that we are, we will always want more and hope for more. But I keep reminding myself, everything is two-way. You cannot expect always only to take and never give.
Doing a 3-quarters report of my life so far, I got to say it is not all that bad. I got to travel quite a fair bit this year, learnt alot, seen alot; and I am pleased with the path my life is taking now. It sure is getting exciting for me as far as I can see.
Contentment is an elusive thing, easy to explain difficult to practice. I am glad I am feeling contented now.
Nights.
Monday, October 10, 2005
The pounding headache that had been plaguing me for a week is finally gone! One week of suffering exactly. And as quietly as it started it snucked off just as sneakily. I was almost beginning to think I had been possessed while in Phuket last weekend. No, do not envy me. I was there for work. And the entire time I was there I did not even get to go near the beach, spent all my time recceing the place for my company conference next month.
Anyway, I digressed. I just wanted to blog that the headache went off because I finally get to meet someone! Someone I have been missing and thinking about alot. Just seeing him makes all my aches and pains go away. It does not even matter that he spent most of the time we were together sleeping. Poor guy, overworked till he has fallen really ill. Just seeing him makes me happy.
Hee... *silly grin*
Will try to blog more and more often. Work has been really hectic, hardly have time to rest and sleep myself, never mind coming online or updating my blog.
Anyway, I digressed. I just wanted to blog that the headache went off because I finally get to meet someone! Someone I have been missing and thinking about alot. Just seeing him makes all my aches and pains go away. It does not even matter that he spent most of the time we were together sleeping. Poor guy, overworked till he has fallen really ill. Just seeing him makes me happy.
Hee... *silly grin*
Will try to blog more and more often. Work has been really hectic, hardly have time to rest and sleep myself, never mind coming online or updating my blog.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Cannot resist one last one...
| How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
Yeah!
| You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
| Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage |
 You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to! |
What irony. Have been thinking lately maybe I would be better off single. Haha.
Hmm... 50% accurate. Go guess which 50... Hehe
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
Some updates:
1. Just got home from business trip to KL office. 5hr coach ride each way. Slept most of the way. Hehehe...
2. Very nice hotel I stayed in. 5mins walk to office. Right next to KL's Mega Mall. Courtesy of boss. Haha. That is one of the perks for travelling with the boss, you get to stay where he likes to stay. Otherwise usually for staff we stay somewhere slightly farther. Too bad no time to shop at all.
3. Chest been hurting slightly these 2 days. Maybe it is the laptop Ihave been lugging around. For its size it is really heavy lor. Now I cannot breathe properly.
4. KL's food makes me go to the toilet. Not diarrhoea, but I keep wanting to go after each meal. Must be the water... Wahahaha...
5. Boss keep showing off his iBook and iPod. Making me itch for either one too... But boss's wife's toy more practical: external hard drive. 4GB for less than $200. The way these two been showing off, I better boost up my restraints against IT toys...
6. It is scary sleeping alone in a hotel room. Even if it is brand new and your boss is just next door. *shiver*
7. Gums bled bad last night when I brushed. Hmm... Teeth been hurting too... Time to see dentist again.
8. Bringing chewing gums back for colleagues makes me nervous at customs. Next time no more.
9. People miss my noise at work. Proves that they find me lively and interesting to have around. Hehehe.
10. Another long weekend with tonnes to do. Haiz.
1. Just got home from business trip to KL office. 5hr coach ride each way. Slept most of the way. Hehehe...
2. Very nice hotel I stayed in. 5mins walk to office. Right next to KL's Mega Mall. Courtesy of boss. Haha. That is one of the perks for travelling with the boss, you get to stay where he likes to stay. Otherwise usually for staff we stay somewhere slightly farther. Too bad no time to shop at all.
3. Chest been hurting slightly these 2 days. Maybe it is the laptop Ihave been lugging around. For its size it is really heavy lor. Now I cannot breathe properly.
4. KL's food makes me go to the toilet. Not diarrhoea, but I keep wanting to go after each meal. Must be the water... Wahahaha...
5. Boss keep showing off his iBook and iPod. Making me itch for either one too... But boss's wife's toy more practical: external hard drive. 4GB for less than $200. The way these two been showing off, I better boost up my restraints against IT toys...
6. It is scary sleeping alone in a hotel room. Even if it is brand new and your boss is just next door. *shiver*
7. Gums bled bad last night when I brushed. Hmm... Teeth been hurting too... Time to see dentist again.
8. Bringing chewing gums back for colleagues makes me nervous at customs. Next time no more.
9. People miss my noise at work. Proves that they find me lively and interesting to have around. Hehehe.
10. Another long weekend with tonnes to do. Haiz.
| Your Birthdate: January 21 |
 Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs. |
Sunday, September 18, 2005
I am finding myself back where I was almost a year back, same predicament. Hopefully not the same conclusion. Nah, not unless I want it to be anyway. I am not referring to my job anyway, but related in a way. Haha. Well all I can say at this point is, I got to watch the signals I am giving out. I am happy where I am, how I am, who I am. Now. So I hope nothing will jeapordise what I have now.
On another note, I had a dream last night. Where I dreamt that some of my friends were upset with me. That suspicions were raised about my absence at 2 weddings. Sigh.
Sometimes I really feel caught between a boulder and a corner. Nothing I can and will do would seem right. Nothing I have to say would matter or sound right. I do not want to be defensive but I do want to be heard on what I have to say.
But probably it does not matter to anyone but me now.
On another note, I had a dream last night. Where I dreamt that some of my friends were upset with me. That suspicions were raised about my absence at 2 weddings. Sigh.
Sometimes I really feel caught between a boulder and a corner. Nothing I can and will do would seem right. Nothing I have to say would matter or sound right. I do not want to be defensive but I do want to be heard on what I have to say.
But probably it does not matter to anyone but me now.
